“Who-do-I-have-to-be now? I mean, I could be Mother Teresa and it wouldn’t make a difference what I did. Did I sacrifice every bit of… love I’m allowed for this life because I killed our little brother?” – Kym.

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Finally get it, Yeahh~  Thanks to F.E.Noviyanti. Muach!

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DVD case – cover and back

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inside the case: booklet, DVD, CD Rom, Kong Studio’s Map

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front and back cover of booklet

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booklet: page 2 and 3

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booklet: page 4 and 5

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booklet: page 6 and 7

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“Kong Studio”‘s Map as DVD’s Content

media: watercolor: Dio.. violet “Cotman”; postercolor: white and silver “Sakura”.
paper: “Canson” 200grams watercolor paper.
comment: just bought the dio.. violet color and wanna give it a try.

This was supposed to posted at Jan 08, 2009 as it was the birthday’s date.  But, oh well.

Happy Birthday! A lot of thing I wanna say:

I’m so sorry had treated you like a porcelain
You’re so beautiful and precious and plain
That I thought I may not have had vain
Since you’re gift from the saint.

So…, it is funny when you said I had treated you like shit
That you didn’t felt my respect even a bit
Onto my heart you really blow huge hit
Sending me out of the orbit
Made me felt guilty like a kid,
or worse, a twit.
Oh yes dear, you really did.

You rejected my suggestion
to hear each other explanation
You said: time will heal our condition
But hell, time do nothing since we have no action
Still you refused any co-operation to improve our relation
And that was the start of our current situation.

I miss you and have had adored you
Always do
And only you.

Really, I don’t wanna say goodbye
Though I know you’re the one who didn’t want to try
I was missing you and still will I
But I can no longer bear myself to cry
I need to be free and fly
You can reach me though, ‘cos I won’t be high
I love you and I’m not shy
I forgive you and there’s no why.

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©Desovia @06/01/09
revise: 23/03/09

This is bad. I yelled to my Mom this morning, just like other morning. I will say “I love you” when I got home… Maybe I should buy cake for her too? She loves it…

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-picture taken from: sendflowers.cc; tools: Adobe Photoshop CS2 by me-

“Don’t make the mistake of healing the internal problem with an external fix” – Megan O’Hara.  Nip/ Tuck, season 1 episode 6.

# Actually, it depends on what internal problem you have.  And assuming from human traits that most of people judging from appearance, external fix could really be healing. #

I’m not a saint.
But seems like I’m trying to be one,
by judging [almost] everything, everyone.

I’m not a saint.
Nor I want to be one.
I’ve been thru’ experiment and pain
that I know I’m going to be someone.
Anyone, except for a saint.

I’m not a saint.
Not sure neither I’m a villain.
though I’m having affair with the evil
that most of time I created suffer.
Nevertheless, I will stop judging people,
and it should makes me feel better.

I’m not a saint.
Though I’m acting like one.
I have have been lain
and notice it’s never done.

I’m not a saint,
but it’s human nature to flirting with taint.
While it’s vain and giving no gain,
I think it’s okay to playing saint.
Sometimes. When the sky’s no rain.

I’m not a saint. Or trying to be one.
Not sure I’m a villain and trying to be one.
But thanks God I’m not a saint.
I’m just human, that is the main.

The end.

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©Desovia @27.11.08

1. Got the hanzi out of nowhere from internet, then I look it up on my dictionary to found each pinyin and meaning.
2. Translation will catch up once I’ve done proofreading it.

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vocal : Chen Kun
album: Zai Yi Ci Shi Xian/ To Come True Again

Zen yang cai neng kan qing chu, ye guang xia shuang yen de wen du
Hui dao wo de shi jie zhong, wo wu fa wang ji he liu zhu

Rang wo dui ni shuo chu kou, yang guang zhao liang wo de ke qiu
Hui dao ni de xing fu zhong, wo wu fa chong dong huo bei ku

Ye xu wo dai mi mang, ye xu wo gai shi fang

Wo jia zhuang wu fa jian dao ni de yi han, mei you zhua zhu ni de shuang yen
Yong you ni de shi jie, rang wo zen yang mian dui zuo tian

# Rang wo mei you jian dao ni de shuang yen, mei you zhua zhu ni de shuang shou
Yong you mei hao de yi qie, zai yi ci de shi xian

Rang wo zou zou ni de lu, yang guang xia guang xian de wen du
Huo zai ni de shi jie zhong, wo wu fa wang ji he liu zhu

% Jia ru wo mei you jian guo ni de shuang yen, mei you zhua zhu ni de shuang shou
Kan guo ni de yi qie she fou wo neng chong hui zuo tian
[back to #, to % then to # again to finish.]

When I thought I got cancer symptoms, these words crossed my mind:

The only thing I’ll be worried towards die,
is how I’m gonna say goodbye.
The only thing makes me sorry if I’m gone:
I’m going to leave some people alone.
The only thing that cheer me up about this fact, 
that I’m gonna rest in peace at last.

Please notice I’m lying when I say:
I wanna see you guys smile when I lay.
Due to the truth I wanna hear a very big cry
From whose have tears and blood runs dry
Just my last wish in letting go off my stay,
from this not so left world right to pray.

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©Desovia @14.09.08 | revise @22.11.08

First, this is not official lyric.

Second, originally this lyric was taken from Yahoo! Answer than I matched it with my ear, then I matched it with the Youtube version and matched it again with my ear.  So it had been modificated several time until it matches what I’d heard.  Choose your own ear version, nee.

and so Third, credits for both url above.  Thank you very much for your guys [hard] work.

 

Title:

BLACK☆STAR (Never Lose Myself)

Artist:

IWASAKI Taku ft. DJ Shinya

Album:

「ソウルイーター」オリジナルサウンドトラック1

 

If there’ll some thing I can understand,
Is everything about nothing,
Excalibur, I can’t stand to hear,
And just his and him, I wanna break him,
Get away from me, you cannot be me,
Get out of my way, stay away!
You don’t understand,
This my stage, this is my place, this is my stardom.

 

No matter what you say, You wanna come my way,
Don’t wanna change my mind, don’t say anything,
Let me show your thought, I got tough still,
That’s why I’m up the top yea,
All of you, just so no you, just so know how great I am,
I take a bush of evil, so flash, never can attack take mine.

 

I walk, everyone watches, I speak, everyone listens,
If you think I’m showing off, you’re dead wrong.
All of you, just so no you, just so know how great I am,
It’s no good to destroy me, I can never be defeated.

 

I am the everything, I never lose my way,
This is the Black Star Kingdom, I never lose myself.

 

I walk, everyone watches, I speak, everyone listen,
If you think I’m just showing off, you’re dead wrong.
All of you, just so no you, just so know how great I am,
It’s no good to destroy me, I can never be defeated

 

I am unbeatable, there is no doubt of man,
You can’t surrender no more, I never lose myself.
I am the everything, I never lose my way,
This is the Black Star Kingdom, I never lose myself.